“I definitely would not return to my day job. I would transfer all personal files from my work desktop and laptop. Then I would write a letter of resignation – giving a two week notice.”

Did this in 2007. It was ridiculous. One of the first signs that I was to begin a new journey. My bosses were total butts about it. I had never gotten in trouble. Did excellent work. Was grossly underpaid and overworked and was aware of it. In fact, the last assignment I got was praised by the client as being the best project ever done by our team, and my supervisor took my name off of it and wouldn’t tell them that I had done it. It just so happened that I worked with the client longer than he had been there, and they knew I did it. My supervisor would screw something up, then send a slightly changed email to me trying to insinuate that I was responsible and show “evidence”. It was actually funny, because I kept every email I sent and received from him even before he began acting shady because I’m just anal like that. With the way they treated me, they actually got mad that I was quitting even though I explained why I needed to and gave notice. Trained my replacement, and everything. Two days before my last day, I was told that I was going to be labeled “unrehirable” because I was quitting. No reason. Never in trouble in four years. Nothing in my file. Not so much as a warning or a write up. Ridiculous. I started to file suit, but decided that with my marriage falling apart and three young children, I just had nothing left to invest in it emotionally, and I walked away. They had the nerve to plan a going away party for me, which was funny. I turned in my laptop to the security guard because I knew it was on video camera in front of her desk (just in case they did something to it and tried to say it was me.) The process hurt, but I knew it was bigger than them. In my astrology, which I found a short while after that, it says I am designed to be my own boss. It was time. I was scared and fearful, and that’s why I believe it turned out to be so painful, yet so ridiculous I had to laugh even in the midst of my hurt.

“I would PURGE the mental files of everything I had ever worked on in conjunction with this job experience. I would physically throw away as much related paper as possible. OK, I’d recycle it. But you get the picture – it would be shredded and removed from my life.”

ALMOST THERE MENTALLY. COMPLETED THE PHYSICAL PART.

“I would unplug the clock on my nightstand and ban alarm clocks from my entire home. I escaped watch wearing long ago, but I would dispose of most time keeping devices in my home. I think the oven and microwave are sufficient time keeping devices and they aren’t in my sleeping space. There is only one time – right NOW.

I would sleep for the first month – as much as I wanted so I could let my internal clock readjust itself to the schedule that is most beneficial to me. I’m a night person and doing days has given me a lot of stress.”

THIS IS SO ME…ONLY I HAVE SLEPT FOR MORE THAN A MONTH. I’M A DREAMER…LOL. BUT LATELY I CANNOT SLEEP. MY EXPRESSION IS TRYING TO COME OUT, AND IT’S STRONG AND OVERDUE. I’VE NEVER HAD INSOMNIA. NO CLOCKS. I DESPISE THEM. THE CLOSEST I COME IS TO THE ALARM FOR THE KIDDOS TO GO TO SCHOOL. I CAN’T WAIT UNTIL SUMMER. I’M THINKING ABOUT KEEPING THEM HOME NEXT YEAR AND NOW ON AND “UNSCHOOLING” THEM MYSELF, WHILE RUNNING MY OWN BUSINESS.

“Who cares if it sells? I don’t need the money. I’m rich.”

STILL WORKING ON THIS ONE…MIGHT BE A WHILE. LOL

I *heart* your writings.

cheers, Astonishingly.